When it doesn’t seem possible to “go on” just suck it all in and bow that “pride” down. Take those last steps to victory one at a time. Take control of the situation if you can but also be humble enough to let it go. In the letting go don’t give up.
There is a difference between “letting go” and “giving up.” When you let go you realize there are multiple outcomes – not just yours. When you give up that “towel” gets tossed and well there it goes. Don’t let go of the towel. I repeat keep the towel. You might need it.
Yes. It is “complicated” and not just anyone will understand. Yet find a friend who just might listen. It will be okay.